Aftermath Unwritten

Original written August 25, 2005

through the gray clouds tonight i'm driving. wondering where you are. are you thinking of me too. or is that only in my mind. when we're together we're so far apart. yet when we're apart you are always near me. like a ghost haunting my path, i turn yet you're no where to be seen. maybe its okay that i can't see. what would i do if i really knew me. these dark clouds are pulling me in, they hold such a sadness until you come around. as we wander through the night without a sound, i know your still here because i can't let you go. because if i do i'm afraid you will forget me too. i wish there was a rainbow at the end of this path, im sure there is but only you can see that. i long for you to hold me though you never truly can. we run so far from what we can see, searching for so much more. hold my hand and lead me down this path. i am willing but unsure of your plans. do you see me as i think you can? im lost in this fog, with no where to go. thats the thing about us.. we don't like to show. because we fear that they don't really care, though were with others we're not really there. so maybe that means that were meant to be more than we pretend we can see. when you just jump into the unknown doesnt it take more? i dont feel i know you, yet i understand your soul. maybe because it's like mine or maybe i just think i should know. know what you mean by the way you nod your head and say were okay. but is there anything in this friendship that should make me feel it must be more than this. do i confuse you or do you comprehend? i want to make it more but im scared to let you in. i think we both fear that the other doesnt but i think we both know, somewhere in our soul. that this is something that we should go for. but as time has told, hearts crumble and break, and always seem to take and take. so one of us must, jump into thin air, the only question now is will you be there? im afraid that im running to fast, that im leaving you behind with nothing to grasp. because this is new and hard to understand. its risky for me to try and take your hand. but i think i might, ive found something tonight. so please if you will, just hold on to what we have, dont let me forget because thats when it all goes bad. and as we both know, this life can quickly become a show. so lets just lay back so no one will know. our adventures are too exciting for us to just let go. so if i am reading this book upside down, lets not forget where we started from. you are so much more than meets the eye. i am so glad you have let me inside, if i must leave i know i must go. but if you let me, i'll gladly hold on. were so much alike, too much maybe.... but where that may lead us may be more than we could ever begin to imagine. you light up my days through your simple manner. you are all i have wanted, yet still i'm not sure.. sure if i really should make this into more.