talking about everything... but only saying nothing

i have the weirdest feeling right now. like i have so
many emotions colliding inside of me. i have so much
to say, so much to learn, and see, and do.... i just
want to be released from myself. to just fly away and
never look back. i want to sit in the clouds and watch
you all live your fake lives. i want to sit in the
clouds and sing and write and just love. i hope heaven
can free me. do you understand me? i think you
possibly may. i want to be weightless, to come and go
as i please. just drifting in and out of peoples
lives, leaving them for the better. but making them
turn for the worse. i wouldnt want them to be worse,
but i seem to be like that. i enjoy tempting people.
its a bad thing. i want to get away from that too.